At the end of this year I will have been in my new place for 2 years.
Since I have been out here I have not done much with my music. Partialy due to so much work needed of me to improve the place and keep it running.
And another part is I just have lost some desire to play music.
If you read this blog you will get the idea that i have worked hard to advance my career in music but had little luck with it panning out.
Such is the case for many musicians out there hitting the bricks every day looking for work.
After playing many many shows where at the end of the night and after each song you are left sitting in the silence you create….waiting and listening for an answer to why you are there to begin with.
I enjoy playing music as much as I always have but when this happens it is tiresome and cuts deep scars into your soul.
I wonder how easy it must have been before the internet in comparrison to the overwhelming amount of people that play music online.
Each person, bar owner, manager, booking agent, etc etc etc has a quirk and a different set of rules that you cant possibly know but are expected to know.
Playing in bars is like giving blood, you are simply background music for people who want to get drunk and laid.
The phrase “exposure” means only to the sun.
NO record executive will be roaming your little piss ass town festival looking for national artists, people dont look for talent that way.
People use that to get free entertainment out of artists when really they are saying….
Come play my event for free, I think so little about your music, your time, you, or all that you have invested, that I will not pay you, but I will make money off your talent.
And people fall for that over and over again.
Slidding scales, percentage of bar sales, working for the door etc etc etc.
All these terms come with hidden things you done know like for instance your pay could be calculated on what the bar made for the whole day even when the band wasnt there, or they dont count bar tabs, or credit card transactions in the bar sales.
Bottom line is its all a way to get over on the band or artists.
If you are a musician you MUST have the confidence to ask for a flate rate and be true to yourself and ask for what you feel you are worth.
If everyone did this we would all get paid.
But then you have “Billy Joe Bob Stumble-fuck and the Midnight Ass Bandits” who are more than happy to assault people nightly with their shitty music and drunkeness on stage who are more than happy to play for a possible shot at a piece off ass and some free beer.
I hope that one day I can reach someone that can help me, with my music. In all likelyhood it wont happen and if it does they will say I am too old to exploit…..and really I just want the world to hear what I am writting about.
My songs mean something to me and I hope they do to you.
Peace and love through music!
Billy Blaze